Swinging

So the EDS diagnosis is sinking in and as it does, my mood is doing loop-de-loops! Doesn't help when a Peer triggers me something awful as well. Yet I'm making it through this! I'm doing this! I may be swinging like crazy, from depressed and even suicidal to happy and content, but I'm handling myself and trying not to hurt anyone despite it all. Maybe I just need a shower, some tea, and a movie, besides having my positive music on. The swinging isn't fun, but it's part of BPD and I know it. It's also part of learning you have a chronic, life-long condition that you can only manage. I just pray that I continue to manage it instead of it managing me as I get older! I think Mom has it as well and think that Gram Bill did have it....and again, want to be like them....managing it instead of it managing me, even if doing so instinctively. For now, just dealing with the BPD is enough until Monday when I start PT for the EDS.