Stigma and 4th Calling

So today's been an interesting and rough day as I have battled an inner battle against what I called a delusion, thinking that others would think so and stigmatize me. You know what I was really battling? Stigma! I was battling what I thought others would think of my thoughts! Well, no more! What I had been calling "delusion" others would call Calling! My proof came as God talked to me in different ways....as I took care of myself and journalled.... "Why? Why do I feel so trapped? Why are my moods swinging wildly? Even in my dreams, I'm captive. Trying to free myself and others, yet still held captive (by stigma maybe?) I crave my mind stories, yet I know there again I'll eventually or at one point, be a captive. Elsa... Draw the Circle Wide.....it needs to widen, to free the captive like me. To free those who live in fear of stigma. We Shall Not Give Up the Fight-->We'll have victory together. I may feel trapped...alone...but I'm not. There are others willing to fight alongside me. *Looks up as next song "It's On" goes on playlist* ALRIGHT! I GET IT! The "delusion" is not so much delusion, but the fear of stigma is real. It's time to stand up and fight that. That's my Calling. God is speaking via music instead of thoughts, proving to me that God has called me. "Who's Crying Now?" Devil be crying now! Jeremiah Julie has answered "Yes, Lord." and I feel better for it!" I plan on studying Jeremiah some more, as Jeremiah is my favorite prophet and while in the hospital recently, I had a chaplain tell me that she could see me being like Jeremiah. There will be rough times, there will be times I want to give up, but hopefully I can come back to this post and remember my 4th Calling. Alright, God, I'm going....I'm going to fight stigma for your people who are oppressed by this evil. Who's with me?