Dreams

Dreams are such interesting things. They can terrify you, inspire you, put you down, or empower you. Lately I've had a bit of a combination of all those aspects of dreams. ED has invaded my dreams in a way that has terrified me, then put me down. He has come in rat form that won't leave, snake form, and in action form in a way I don't dare say on a blog b/c I don't want to trigger anyone who has also been there, but I will say, if you're a survivor you may know what I mean. ED is a bully that way, putting me down, terrifying me, trying to get me to follow his way, but I won't anymore. I'm in recovery and loving it.

The other side of dreams I've also had, namely the one last night. I took back my power from someone who had done sexual harassment and more, basically opposite of the other dreams (another hint). The dream had started out odd, with me doing illegal things, but ended up with me being empowered and inspired. Now I know I can help others somehow in some way. The dream showed me that. The journey may not always be easy (or orthodox for that matter), but it can happen and I can take my life back from my past. If I could do that in my dream, I can do that now. IS is getting more powerful inside and I love that fact. Now, more than ever, thanks to that dream, I KNOW I can be not only in recovery, but recovered! Everyone else out there struggling can too, if I can do it, you can! It's just a matter of believing in your IS and letting it grow and growl!